Misconcept

Misconcept

We walked together down the street
together like nothing could cause a wall
I was filled with happiness
glee without peak
I spoke my heart out
telling as I have never told before
the silence told me of the attention I had
I told all that was there to be told
the silence told me of the attraction
I told my thoughts my words
the silence told me of the interest
i was telling of how they used to ignore....
realised it was the same
the silence that was so many things
that was good and beautiful
suddenly raised it's head like a snake
realised it wasn't attention,
wasn't attraction, wasn't interest
but like any other day it was just
it was just the painful ignorance
I turned to the side and saw
I was walking alone
I tried to look back and it was blurred
and then to me it occured
in me so consumed to tell of myself
I forgot to look out for my happiness
and it left, and left me alone
with no one left to turn to
no memory and no friend
and then I realised the single truth
the more I spoke of myself, for myself
the clearer I became about me
so clear the image became
that everything around was blurred
so the more I spoke of myself, for myself
the unhappier I became.....
the lonelier I became.....

The Sound

A strange sound

Like the songs of a bird

Of the myriad realms, unknown

Strange and rare it is

For years go by and I can't remember

The sound as it was

Now lost and long gone

Still I remember the feeling

For it used to make me happy

But it is long gone like the words of wisdom

Like the love of a child

Like the care of a mother

Like the wind that carries love

It is gone

It is gone

It is long gone

But still I remember

The feeling of it all

The sound that was mine

The sound we call a laugh......

It's gone, It's gone

The sound of my laugh

The Coin

The Coin
I don't know why

It happens to me only

words that should bring joy

they do nothing but make me cry

when they stopped saying things

i heard the voice that wasn't

i heard the sound that wasn't

but with all the pain that was to come

i had no fear of them

for it is a habit for me now

for i have no fear now

i have been hurt so often

that pain holds no meaning

not for me now

for stange it is

they say happiness and sadness

are the faces of the same coin

so what should i believe now

has the mathematician's formula gone wrong

or should I believe something has

gone wrong with my fate

for never matter how many times

the coin is tossed

i keep getting the same one....

Forgot to love

I forgot to love.......

One day I woke up
and found the answers
and found the reason
for even with so much love
why i was so still
the world around me
strangely turned it's back
i was sad as sad
as can be
and it was all
happening to me
for in all my love
i forgot to love
I loved the oceans
and I loved the sea
I loved the sky and
I loved the thought to fly
with so much love in me
i still forgot to love
the one thing i failed
i failed to see
that i forgot to love
the happiness in me
so it left to see
what i make of me
when there like a great tree
sadness settled in me
now i miss it most
even in the frost
or it be the sunlight
which too gives me a fright
that i failed to see
it's importance for me
as I forgot to love
the happiness in me
but now i can see
how far from the love
I can be
and still the happiness
came back to me
I got used to it
and forgot to love
to love it again
and so i found
the nature of me
to give up of ignorance
what's dearest to me
and finally i failed again and again
and it left me again
to never be seen again
to leave me wanting again
to leave me feeling alone again
so i am left alone again
left feeling alone again
for with all my love
i forgot to love
love the happiness in me.......

She Never Understands
I love her so much,
She never understands,
The way I look at her,
Can't she see at all,
The way I feel her feels,
Can't she feel at all,
I can't say what I hold,
In my heart for her,
Can't she say it all,
When the breath of flowers,
Blows through the wind of valleys,
I love her,
Love her I have,
And I can't stop it,
Can't she love me at all,
I can see it in her eyes,
The same fear,
The clinging thought,
The feeling that steals away,
The moment that was ours,
Please can't you express it at all,
We spend time together,
And I feel so much love,
I feel my heart will explode,
From all the love,
But still she can't understand at all,
From heavens they say angels come,
I don't feel their need at all,
In all heavens you can't find one,
Not for me who loved will be more,
Can't you see my love is taking it all,
Flying away with the thought,
Thought only of you,
But can't you see at all,
It's all for you,
Only you..... Only you.....

Lost love

Why Don't You Understand
My love please
Look at me this way
I don't have it in me
To say what I have to say
Never matter what you see
But please look at me this way
I like you so much
For liking is what's necessary
Taught I was when I was but a kid
Like you more than the stars
That a kid who looks at them
More than the heart that
Beats when a lover touches the other
More than the life
That the man who is dying
But my love please
Look at me this way
Everytime you pass
I draw the strings that move
My brain to come up
With just a cause
To talk to you
To tell you
To ask you just once
To look at me this way.....
My lover please....
Look at me this way.....

Friend I Believed In......

Friend I Believed In.........

I lay there crying
And dejected for love was unclear
And hope was hopeless
The certain became uncertain
I shut my eyes to clear the image
Of the unearthly demons of abyss
That clawed at my heart
Then a light came down on me
It was like a mist so unclear
That I could barely feel

It promised me great things
A warm feeling at my heart
And a hand to hold
How great that was the time
And how great was life
Now the mist cleared and
I could see a friend
And I knew friends are all
One needs to be happy
But as I looked down
With glee and happiness
I saw my form falling
Into the pit so dark
So deep it has no end
And still that hand
Of my friend
It was there
It made me feel secure
And comforted me till
I saw the hand it was
Not the one holding me
It was the hand
That was dragging me
To the pit down below
I stared in disbelief
And in amaze
The hand that comforted
The hand that supported
The hand that was of friend
It was not so comforting
Nor was it supporting
But became a menace
Rising like the flames
Of a fire from the pits
Of hell where it dragged me
Away from one and all
Who loved me.........

Can You Help Me My Best Friend

Please you can understand
For you are the only one
I am alone all alone
Can you set me anew
Life is meant to be lived once
But I turn and look back
So many times,
A new story everytime
A new clock everytime
set me anew again
Turn the dials and turn it again
See if I can have it again
For years I have erred
Sometimes I was a failure
To finish off with tears
This time I am winning
Yet I can't smile
I can't be happy again
Smile is what I want again
Can you reset me again
For in my smiles
I am not happy still
One more clock for them all
I don't wanna lie this time
I just wanna smile this time
Everyone is meant to live once
For in one life
I have lived many lives......

This Is My Blog Friends...........

I Don't Know What To Say Really It Feels Strange......

For Words Can't Justify My Acts.........

For Words Can't Undo My Deeds..............

For The Lies I Have Told.......

To One And All.......

But Still This Is My Blog Friends.......

For I Am So Tired......

Of Lying.......

And Living A Life..........

That's Not Mine To Live........